The Little Fish

a tear of the past.."i died. when she died"

2006-03-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

I dont know why. Although i feel so lethargic, i can't get to sleep. I started to think of my mum. And eventually, i cried. Somehow, it doesn't feel the same anymore. I'm growing and starting to mature, yet i'm still living in the past. It has been 5 years ever since and her death, had turned me to a gloomy and self-centered person, but it also nurtured my sense of character. It may not make any sense to you but it has a different impact on me. "I'm not alone", they say. The truth is, We will all be alone; somewhere, somehow and sometime. My life; The way i go and The path i choose, now seems so bleak. After her last breath, i died too, spiritually. Can one person feel or care so much for another? Is this what they call, "Love"?
-vanni, the little fish-
"i died when she died"

its been a LONG time!!! xDDDD

2006-03-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

wheew!!! just came back from work..punched out at 9.. did fries station practically the whole day la!! lols xD but it was fun wor. stupid man!! burnt my finger!!! haix.. this whole week worked like crazy.. most of the time end at 12 or so.. except for today la. cos got school tmr mah. so long i never blog liao. . maybe in the future also no time. hai... no choice lor.. but made a few friends. work is tiring but FUN!! =D ohman!!! my maple's down!!! dams.. haiiii.... nvms la.. anyways since im working i dont think i will have time to play one lor.. wa.. i better go pack bag.. tmr got school liaozz. sianzz.. yay!! tmr SVA Award Ceremony!! WOHOO!! that means we are at lease getting an award!!! yayayayayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok.. thats quite enough. hahas xDD wa.. 11.50 liaoz.. nite nite =)
-vanni, the little fish-
tired but delighted!! x))

busy , busier , SUPER BUSY!!!

2006-03-15T01:42:00.002+08:00

hmm. its been quite a while since i updated. yea.. been doing night shift so its kinda hard to do so.especially just a few hours ago.. just got off from work at 1am! xD super tired now. just took a nice shower. nth has been happening much lately. just working thats all. im seriously DRAINED OUT!!! aww man. nitexx..ZzzzZZzzZZz
-vanni, the little fish-
busy and tired little me!! xDD

working at mac. we WON SRC today!!! yay!! x)

2006-03-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

ohman. just came back from work. (macs) xDD washed and wiped ALOT of trays!!! about near 200.. lol.. today did lobby work.. cleaning tables and stuff, taking out the garbage... haix.. the most busy duty lor. xP whole of next week also working. but its fun! hahas!! =D aniwaes.. we WON MGS in the first match of SRC today!! WOHOO!!! JIA YOU GALS!! we can win more matches de x) wa.. im freakin tired. =p needa sleep. zZzzz niteesszzz
-vanni, the little fish-
very tired but happy!! x)

fun birthday today? at lease we had good FOOD!!! xD

2006-03-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

Bday dinner was great today!! ate lots of stuff!! x) watched im not stupid too the movie with my dad after coming back from hwa chong. it was so touching that even my dad cried!! =0 and collected our CUPCAKES !! which was ordered ystd XD but not really looking forward tmr.. cos it will be my last day at hwa chong. sobs. all the ppl are so nice there!! tmr there's a rocket competition. surely parachute cant come out again..(then malu xD) & yes!! just found out that there's a sb match on sat??!! nobody told us until now!! & im starting to work at mac from tmr. hmm.. march hols is going to be a busy one! so many camps and videos to take!! i think im going slp. niteex
-vanni, the little fish-
busy little bee xP

a quiet birthday.. BIRTHDAY DINNER AFTERWARDS!!!! WOHOO!!!

2006-03-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAY DADDY & ME!! =PP
just ate ice cream cake and my dad & I celebrated our birthday at about 12pm just now.. this
year's birthday was a very quiet & quite a lonely one.. hmm. but its alright. at lease my dad bought me a present xD OHMAN! have NOT bought his!!! xD aniwae i had ice cream cake to eat! =) ystd was an all daddy and daughter outing. we went to get the cake, shop for my present and bought alot of food!! (mini smiley faces cupcakes too!) xP after im dismissed from hwa chong, we are going to eat seafood at takashimaya restaurant. YAY!! good food!!! x) anyways.. ystd was kinda boring at hwa chong as there was no rocket science but we learned TRIGONOMETRIC RATIO.. lol.. but it was kinda fun too =D we measured some stuff in the school like the flagpole & the Tan Kah Kee Statue! lol x).. cant wait for tmr!! we will be modifying our rockets again =) & my YUMMY SEAFOOD DINNER!!! xDDD im kinda tired. guess i'll go to slp now.
-vanni, the little fish-
excited yet bored xP

science course in hwa chong RAWKED!! x))

2006-03-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

yay! i made a few friends from hwa chong =D but i can only remember one of their names. -_-'' lol!! he's in the pet rocket course too. name's bing heng. he plays MAPLE too xDD very helpful & shy(but not online!! wahaha!! xPP) hmm. actually all the guys there are kinda shy but they are nice =) aniwaes.. the course is so fun!! not only did we launch and build the rockets, but we also deployed parachutes into the rockets, and launched them! and of course what goes up, must come down. so the rocket landed slowly(becos of the parachute of course!) xDD tmr is just theroy. aw man xP but hwa chong's librabry is so dam biggggg!!!!! its 3 storeys high!!!! cant wait to go back tmr x) its getting late. so good nitexxx!!!
-vanni, the little fish-
an ever-rawking day xD

simply BORING day.. bday comin..anyone out THERE??

2006-03-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

going to sleep soon!! today was kinda boring.. slept supa late.. then studied..(obviously) den.. go IMM buy stuff lor.. bla bla till night.. have tuition... now updating my blog.. lols xP haiya.. today i really can think of anything interesting to say.. nothing special bah. BUT!! i CANT wait to go to hwa chong!! WOHOO!! no more comment...... except for.. my birthday is coming.. anyone out there???! hmm.... wadeva xD
-vanni, the little fish-
tired.. simply bored

boring & lonely birthday on 9th march =/

2006-03-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

its late and i havent sleep yet xP today was quite boring but fun! watched pink panther with my dad after tution =D but one sad thing is that no one is free on thursday.. my birthday.. all going home to study for common test.. sobs.. will be another boring and lonely birthday for me again.. some even forgotten when my birthday is!!! im NOT surprised.. hmm... dont think i have anything else to say =///
-vanni, the little fish-
boring & lonely birthday

worst, HORRIBLE day!!!

2006-03-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

yay!! my dad's back!! finally man! xDD no need for any inconvience in transport!! =P today was the worst.. my phone was confiscated from a "passer by" Mr. FAT "AH TAN" and i only getting it back on mon!! wth?? hmm.. whats more.. im not coming back to school la! im going to hwa chong! how do you expect me to survive for the weekend without my phone??!?!!? haixx.. nvms la. go back to school earlier. its not far anyways xPP weehahas!! i can miss common test week!!! =DD going hwa chong to do science stuff. doing some rocket stuff. yay! at lease better than taking common test yea? x) but of course have to re-take la! on fri and sat that is. aniwaes.. who is free this thursday?? can pei wo celebrate mi bday mah? i treating =) but i dont think anyone would go la. since its a common test day -_-'' ..sobs.. of all days??! hahas xP nvms la. only my birthday wads. think thats all i hvae to say? xDD aiya. got nth to say mah. hahas. x)) When my first paycheck come in march ar.. i treat all C gals softballers k? =DD nitexx.
-vanni, the little fish-
the worst, horrible day

nothing special today.. but softball training RAWKED!! x))

2006-03-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

im tired to my bones!!! argh.. nothing special happened today.. the same old normally boring stuff. except that i gave eric a card xD wa!! kenny, pls dont pms me the whole day again hor.. its scary la!! i thought i did something very wrong to you wor! frightened the shit out of me xDD only at training then you say you were kidding. made me worry like crazy in class. lols. nvms la. anyways. good throws and catches kenny!! for todays sb training. i think you make a fine 2nd base =D jie xin too yea? can catch alot of high balls today =)) & today's training rawk!! everyone did well in training today. Jia You everyone!! x)) wa.. now 11.05 liao. going to sleep.. zZZz..zzz nitexxss xP
-vanni, the little fish-
a day's rawking world

met a PRODUCER!! wohoo!!! x)

2006-02-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

just came back from west mall.. bought a card. saw natasha from my class.. with a guy xD anywayss.. there was humanities test today. well, believe i can do well =D after school went to eat yoshinoya with clara, jie xin they all. im so broke this week la!! haix.. i still treat my baobei jie xin to a meal leh.. hahas xP jie xin. u see i so "teng" ni worz!! ;PP anyways.. sunddenly mr zuri called me.. asked me to come to the mrl.. dunno wad emergency.. i thought i needed to help film dunno wad thing again.. instead, i met this guy named ashely, who is smth like a producer!! he came and taught me many media stuff wor!! even complimented me! xD lucky i went back to school xDD oh yea.. been very confused lately.. i dont seem to know how i feel anymore? hm. at lease now i have a group of friends to hang out with. and now i feel belonged.. xPP ohmy.. its getting late.. needa wake up at 4.30am!! argh!! need to go to dunno wad church la.. all CAC members must go.haix..
-vanni, the little fish-
torn between

my almost PERFECT day!! new baobei > kenny x)

2006-02-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

omg!! i cant believe what i had heard!!! he almost asked.. HALF WAY SOMEMORE!! until.. stupid teacher!!! asked us to "SHH!!!" wth??! ( you know all the details la kenny xD) anyways, recess extended to 10:45 lor!! 15mins extra leh!! slept in maths class today while listening to mp3 some more! hahas!! & softball was so fun today la!! kenny became my baobei also wor x)) jie xin baobei, for wadeva that happened today, dont get too upset k?? & can dun pms me pls baobei xPP no la.. just kidding. u didnt pms me much. lols xDD kenny!! you rawk!!! xPP thanks for listening to me when i called u after tuition! nth happened after tuition though.. no calls nor sms from him wor.. except for.. "good night, sleep tight.. shuld be dreamin of ya" omg !! ^^ but still.. it didnt quite answer my question?? hm. stupid tuition teacher la!! interrupted us.. kaoz.. once again kenny, super baobei best friend, you rawk!! x) will keep you updated if there's anything k? ohya.. why none bothered to remember my birthday one!!! kaoz.. all peng seh me when my birthday comes har??! lols xD must get me smth wors baobei(s)!! hahas!! wa..its going 11pm. knocking off. HEY KENNY!! THIS POST IS ESPECIALLY FOR U WORZ!!! MY BAOBEI!! X)
-vanni, the little fish-
going crazily excited!!

a funKy day!! ;P

2006-02-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

wohoo! today went swimming!!! den after swimming around 8, went long john silver to eat. but before that had maths tution.. =/ had forgotten all about it until maths teacher showed up before i left the house xD lols. maths suxs.. hm. but i enjoyed myself for the rest of the day =D
oops! its getting late. betta get some sleep if not i cant get up xP hopin to see you again soon! x)
-vanni, the little fish-
a funky day!

hiax.. BUSY week!!!

2006-02-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

oops! didnt update last night.. well.. its been quite a busy week for me.. common test is coming in about a weeks time.. sighs. today i had to go back to school to do some video editing.. woke up at 7!! argh.. no sleeping late.. *sobs =( but its alright. it was fun. we filmed a soccer ball "coming to life" lols xD looks like i wont be updating my blog so regularly now.. hmm.. most certainly not looking forward to tomorrow, another boring day =/ no choice.. whats more.. looks like i will be celebrate my birthday with the 1st test paper on the 1st day of common test.. MOST dissapointing.. looks like its getting late. i better turn in now before i drop dead on the floor. xP
-vanni, the little fish-
dissapointed & stressed

want any school videos? come find me =D

2006-02-24T06:13:00.000+08:00

oops. forgotten to update last night. well.. im leaving for school now. xD anways.. thanks xin mei for teaching me how to upload skins!! =) haha. argh.. dad not around so have to wake up early to go to school.. *sobs =( ohman.. its getting late and i needa go.. sorry for such a short post.. oh yes.. if you all want any school videos, like the cross country and stuff.. come look for me yea?
-vanni, the little fish-
sleepy.. zZzZzz

a post b4 bed =D

2006-02-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

as i promised.. will write new post b4 i join my ever-rawking pillow to sleep xD just spoke to my dad online, suddenly i miss him terribly.. also dunno why.. so i bugged him to come back earlier xP just now.. was trying to do up my blog right.. then also keep buggin clara.. "how to do this? how to do that??" wa.. im sure at one point of time she got pissed off. lols xD hurray!! cant wait to go for the film media camp!! sounds cool & fun!! =D the chinese high thingy also.. one of that two days missing common test also wor! but of course will have to re-take bah. but still got more time to study wor!! =P haix.. so tired.. cannot study liaozz.. i think i better join.. my EVER-RAWKING PILLOW to bed!! wohoo!!! x) good nitex!! love ya dad!! =X
-vanni, the little fish-
sianz & missing ppl

my blog is done!! ..for the time being xD

2006-02-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

phew!!! my blog is finally "basically" fixed.. today jie xin(lemon tree) pms me.. *sobs.. haiya.. she was pms-ing everyone today la! lols. x) i think cos she don wan to go scoring course. anyways, today's health screening was crazy!! my eye sight was worst.. (of course) but the worst part was.. some kind of bone check thingy.. had to take out shirt and all.. ewww.. hahas xD but its quite ok la. there were only girls.. aniwaes, i finally, talked to my dad today!! yays!! i didnt know he wouldnt come back till next week!! argh!! no money liao -_-'' lols.. just kidding la =P i miss him wor.. i thought he will be back this week. have to suffer from boredom for another week.. hm. oh yea!! common test is coming!! and i so dam sway.. 1st day of common test..9th of march.. MY BIRTHDAY!!! haix.. sucks lor.. very depressing siaz.. like tat how to celebrate? haiya.. nvms la. can celebrate with my test papers !!! wahahas. xDD looks like i gtg for a while.. will be right back b4 i sleep =D i go study liao =))
-vanni, the little fish-
totally SWAY!!! =(

tuiton rawks!! & so do u xP cant wait till sat.

2006-02-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

just came back from tuition, around 10pm.. totally boring.. but it was also fun! hahas x) his smile is just so irresistible!! & the best moment of the day..(drum roll) is... that he asked me if i was free this saturday to help him shop for his mum's birthday present!! WOHOO!!!!! THIS is THE BEST DAY EVER!!!! x) anyways.. totally not looking forward to tomorrow's health screening but totally looking forward towards softball!! yay! xD B girls are having their match against fajar tmr. sounds exciting. im confident we can win!! jia you seniors!! you girls rock!! oh yea.. my sicky feeling seem to have dissapeared after tuition xP im well and ready for school tmr! wahaha! ohmy. look at the time..its already 11.25pm. looks like i better turn in, my ever-rawking pillow is waiting for me!! hahas!! xD cant wait till sat!! good nitex! & sleep tights!! tc everyone!! =D
-vanni, the little fish-
i still cant believe what i heard

.. sicky feeling.. but there's tuition xD

2006-02-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

.. oh man.. vomitted just now.. feeling dam sicky.. still having tuition somemore. but never minds la. since i didnt go to school, its better to go tuition to catch up right? and the best part that can cheer me up. he will be there x) hahas. thats not the only reason i go tuition la.. i go there to learn also wor!! xD wahaha! i seem more energetic now.. oops.. gotta go to tuition now. CONFIRM, will be back soon de!! =P
-vanni, the little fish-
energetically, sicky xD

.. didnt go to school today..

2006-02-21T12:20:00.000+08:00

.. haix.. didnt go to school today.. had a major hedache.. dont think my dad would believe huh?at lease i did some studying at home. i think i better continue with my revision.. at lease this way, i dont lose out much even if i didnt go to school. will be back soon.
-vanni, the little fish-
stressed but trying

HOMEWORK clearance is over!! woohoo!! x)

2006-02-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

.. wahaha!! homework clearance is over!! lols xD im tired.. but too hyper to sleep.. training today was as fun as ever. the usual "pian tai" stuff. my "sex buddy" jie xin, also known as "lemon tree", kenny, also known as "pigs can fly".. we keep on crappin during training la.. lols xD so fun wor! that jie xin la.. keep on beating other ppl's butt.. hit other ppl's breast & other horny stuff la.. lols.. jie xin, if you are reading tis, we are through!!! no sex for you! go find kenny xDD (u know its a joke hor) lols!! we had a cup noodles softball gathering after training. Den, jie xin and kenny started talking horny stuff again.. hmm.. i cant believe coach & i share the same birth dates wor.. this is horrifying!! anyways.. he called at around 9.30pm jus now.. asked me if i needed help in anything. hmm.. i havent even touched my teddy bear chocolates.. they are jus too precious to be eaten x) ohmy..look at the time..its 10.45pm alr..i think i better before i fall asleep in my chair?? wahahas! once again, my pillow rawks!! rawk on pillow!! x)) oh yea..& if you girls were wondering, kenny & jie xin..THIS post, is specially for you both =D nitex ppl!! im off to bed with my still ever rawk-ing pillow!! wahahaha!!
-vanni, the little fish-
hyper &crazy(im aware of that xD)

THE beautiful YET perfect day..RUINED!! *sighs

2006-02-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

.. just came home.. dead TIRED!!! softball ended quite late today.. as usual -_-'' & wads more, more HOMEWORK!!! sighs* too much till i didnt go tuition.. tats the worst part!! i cant get to see him! haix.. =( the beautiful yet "perfect" day, ruined.. just like that. but no worries! he'll be there tmr too x) & the best part of all is that.. IM GOING!!! wahaha. okay okay.. i know im lame... lols xD wohoo!! i feel so good!! anyways.. tupid coach.. scold, scold, scold... bla bla..ask me throw ball i throw.. now i sprained my arm.. somemore the arm that i pitch with.. ohno.. homework piling up now.. sobs* will be back soon =)
-vanni, the little fish-
happy the me

the rest of THE boring day...zZzzzZ

2006-02-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

hmm..lets see what did i do for the rest of the day? er..well..i spent most of the time playing psp..oops..i forgotten to study!! xP wahahaha. only for today rights?? lols.. oh yea..and one of the best things that happen today is that.. the ice cream bell rang at about 6!! hahas xD i quickly ran down to buy. the usual of course! sweet corn with biscuits. yay! my fav! =P anyway.. watched the show on channel 5.. catch me if you can. the guy was dam clever lor!! if only i was like him =P that will never happen la. lols! wa.. if my dad found out that i didnt study today, he will chop me into pieces!! argh.. hahas xD today; another boring day at home.. but hey.. at lease i recieved a call from him right? is this feeling just infatuation? or something else? hmm.. lets just see what happens next.. its 10.20pm now.. i think i better turn in. tmr i gotta wake up early!! argh.. hate school days.. wohoo!!! my pillow rawkz!!! x) and where ever "you" are.. i just wanna say good night, sleep tight.. and.. missing you loads! =)
-vanni, the little fish-
good night & sleep tight

argh!! stupid construction!! so NOISY!!!

2006-02-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

stupid construction!!! EEEEE!!!...BANG BANG!! PANG PANG!!! the sound of the drill...like drilling right through my wall!!! drives me nuts! .. my neighbours is renovating thier house.. hmm.. they started at 8 in the MORNING!!! and mostly ppl would sleep late on weekends right??!? inconsiderate ppl!! woke me up so early somemore..i didnt get to sleep late on sat too..at lease i gave them a piece of my mind! xD at 9am, i just couldnt stand it anymore..so i opened my window and said.."can you shut up for awhile?? im trying to sleep here?!? its a sunday u know??!" my neighbours and the construction men stared at me..then i slamed my window..FINALLY!!! some peace after that!! not until 12pm that is... -_-'' but at leased i manage to sleep for another couple of hours right? xP and its good that i shouted at my neighbours as they were also very rude lor... hmm.. this shuld teach them a lesson eh? hahas x) im gonna play my sim2 on psp now. yuppi!! will be back soon!! x)
-vanni, the little fish-
finally some peace and quiet

suffering from serious boredom..hmm...

2006-02-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

i cant seem to sleep... but i'm tired.. sobs. maple seems to be a bore now.. (just poking stuff) xD but heys.. its an investment!! lols! xP plannin to sell my account.. (for real $ of course!) hmm.. valentine's day was fun. but... my heart was fill with guilt.. i "pang seh" him.. im so mean!! haix..i also didnt know wad to do mah...he didnt seem to be upset about it. even today.. everytime i see him, he wil always be smiling. it comforts me so. today at tuition, i say sorry to him becos of the v day thingy.. he said he didnt mind and was alright. was it really alright?? i dont know.. he seems to tell me everything except his true feelings about someting? that, i dont know. how should i tel him? or will he ever tell me? hmm..lets live another moment and wait. the moment will come right? i have found you; havent i?
-vanni, the little fish-
confused & lost

I'm bored; & here came along my blog

2006-02-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

hmm..lets see..i was bored..so i created this blog? i'm pretty clueless about all this?? lols...will be back soon i think. *yawns.. lols xP
-vanni, the little fish-
boredom is killin me